The news that shook my world more than anything ever has.....

I was pretty nervous for this Dr.'s appointment because I knew I would have to get a shot, and get my blood drawn. If you know me, you know how FREAKING TERRIFIED I am of needles. I pass out pretty much every time a needle is in sight, and don't even get me started on how traumatic my cortisone shot to my knee was.... *shiver*

So I was a little nervous for this appt. to say the least, but I knew it was for the best purpose on earth... I can do anything for my baby.

The appointment

We went in, talked to the nurse about all sorts of medical questions. She told me that the Dr. was going to come in and do an ultrasound so we can see the baby, get some measurements, and hear the heartbeat. Then after that she would answer any questions I had, and then we would do the flu shot, and draw blood. I was nervous, but knew it would be okay. So it was time for the ultrasound, and right away we see the little peanut, and we listened to the heartbeat. She was impressed at how strong the little heartbeat was. A few tears rolled down my face, and I could't believe I was hearing my baby's heartbeat! She then moved the ultrasound head, and said, "AAANNNNNND there's baby number 2!!!"

"WHAT?"

Was the only thing that came out my mouth.

I look up at Cade, and the only thing I see is his hand fly up and cover his mouth. The Dr. and nurse were just as surprised and started giggling. She went to take a picture of the two of them, and the machine ran out of paper!!!! So she and the nurse went to go find some. They left the picture on the screen for us to take in while they were gone. I looked at cade and just started crying. This is a miracle. I have never felt so much joy and excitement ever. ever ever. They came back in to finish the ultrasound, and grabbed some different paper.. that was darker and harder to see, but I still love those pictures. We got to hear the heartbeat of 'Baby B' as well, and it was even moving around which made me cry even more. Two very strong heartbeats, which was so amazing to witness.

By the time it came to get my shot and blood drawn, I was seriously in so much shock, I didn't even care that there was a needle in my arm, or the fact that she had a hard time finding my veins. I literately just sat there like I was asleep. hahahah! Cade sat there white as a ghost... we were both in serious shock.

Talk about the most amazing, shocking Dr's appointment we have ever had.

Cade had to go back to work for a few hours, and I had activity days with the 8 and 9 year old girls from church. I don't even remember the activity honestly. hahahahah

When I called my parents, Dad was really surprised (but he's a twin, so I don't know why he and I were so surprised!) and again, that laugh I love. He just kept saying "no way. no freaking way." hahahaha yes way. He was pretty dang excited, and wanted to tell everyone. When I called mom next, she was literally SCREAMING for a good 5 minutes. I told her she needed to stop screaming because someone in her apartment building was going to think she was being murdered or something... but she didn't stop. hahahah! When I told Cade's mom, she just looked up at me and almost screamed too... "NO! you're joking!" no jokes here! hahah! My little sister was sick with strep.... otherwise she probably would have screamed as well. We got some funny texts from Cade's sisters. Cade's mom pulled his dad in and said, "well here's your father, tell him." and Duane joked, "is it twins?!" I think the look on my face said it all, and his face was probably my favorite thus far... It was amazing to be able to share our news with our loved ones, and get such fun reactions out of them. My favorite thing lately is to tell people I am having twins because the reaction is priceless!

SO like I said.... my dad and my uncle, the first born in their family.... are twins. I couldn't wait to tell grandpa and grandma....  I am probably the only one who knows how my grandma truly felt.

My body is creating a miracle. and I am in absolute AWE that I am capable of such a miracle. I have never felt so loved, and so close to my Heavenly Father than I do this week. I have felt EVERY emotion this week as I try to comprehend what is ahead. After a day of being scared, and anxious, I have finally realized that our Heavenly Father will not give me anything that I haven't already agreed, and knew I could do. I knew I could handle this, and so does he. So I am no longer going to overthink how everything will work... I will just have faith. Afterall, faith is the reason he entrusted me with this blessing... because he knows I trust him fully.

I hope you'll follow us on our journey... I've got some funny dreams, how I have been feeling, weird foods I love to eat, and progress coming up... so stay tuned!!!


XOX

The day(s) that changed our lives forever.

I remember thinking to myself one afternoon.... man... is my period really that late? I bet it's all the working out i'm doing.. that can make your period late can't it?.... hmm... I totally missed my period.... I knelt down and told my Heavenly Father that I was afraid to take a pregnancy test because I was afraid of getting my hopes up and feeling let down if it said negative. I stood up and knew it was okay to be excited about the most amazing miracle that I knew my body was capable of. I knew if it wasn't today, it would happen when the time was perfect. So I took the most important test I will ever take in this lifetime. I totally left the room and went and knelt down again, being so grateful for things in my life that have made it possible to even be here taking this test. I went back in, grabbed the test and started sobbing. Again, I knelt down, tears streaming down my face.. I am going to be a mother. I have never felt so much gratitude and love in my entire life. It took me a good hour to fully comprehend what was happening in my life. Cade was at work, so I went to the store to buy him a present to tell him when he got home.

I seriously couldn't wait for Cade to get home. I don't think I've ever been so excited. When he got home, we had all of his sisters here, and their kids, and it was so hard for me to be patient. Finally I told him to come down stairs, and I handed him the little green bag. He opened it, and didn't even read the paper. He looked right at the onsies, and binkies, and said "ARE WE HAVING A BABY?!" I will never ever forget the look on his face. I told him to read the paper, and he did. I got the best, most meaningful hug that night. A night I will never, ever forget.

The next morning I left for work, still in amazement at what is taking place in my body RIGHT NOW.  I don't think I stopped smiling that week.

THE BIG REVEAL (S)

From the day I found out, and on, I have been sick, all day, everyday. Living with Cade's family was sure to be difficult. We had a big Bear Lake trip planned on the weekend, and that whole week I was able to convince his family that "my stomach is really upset, and NOTHING sounds good". That worked for the week. Cade and I planned to tell his family when we were all together, and my family the following weekend when we were all together as well for my grandparent's 50th wedding anniversary party.  I am actually amazed that no one completely figured out our secret before we had time to tell them at Bear Lake. Cade's two sisters always told me that I didn't look like I was feeling good, or offered me little snacks between meals being done. Sunday rolled around, and I was throwing up all morning. After General Conference I went to the loft and took a nap. Next thing I know I hear EVERYONE in our condo.... so I knew this was it. I went downstairs and we sat there talking for a few minutes. Soon a few families wanted to head back to their condo, so cade jumped up and said, "well guys, we were going to do this a cute way, but while we are all together.... We are having a baby!" Everyone was pretty surprised, but then again, it made sense to why I was so sick all the time.

NEXT WEEKEND: We stopped at my mom's, and I had made these really cute mugs that said "Grandma est. 2015" and "Grandpa est. 2015". My mom's birthday was the next weekend so it actually worked out really well. I told her I had a birthday present for her and that she needed to open it NOW. David my step dad came in from grilling and I made mom open hers first... She pulled her mug out, and started crying. Seriously crying. I have never seen someone so happy, ever. Mom and step dad thought it was pretty cool! 

When we went to my Dad's, they were running around trying to get things done for the party for my grandparents. Tausha my step mom, went to the store to get frosting ingredients for some cake brownies she made. We played with little Sam, and dad busted out our handguns. I couldn't help but to smile because I knew one day he'd be doing this with his grandbaby. We played around with the guns, and decided we wanted to get a quick shoot in. I ran out to the car to grab their mugs, and when I came in they were confused as to why I would have a present for them. I grabbed one and handed it to dad, and the other to Tausha. Dad opened his first, and out came his signature "proud moment laugh" that I love to hear, and will never forget. He just said, "WHAAAAT! NO WAYYY!!!" and I had to laugh because Tausha got a huge smile and said, "oh my heck! congrats! But I'm not old enough to be a grandma!!!" It was such a special experience. Then we went out for a celebratory shoot in the hills ;) hahah! 

It came time for the party, and I was NERVOUS. I am the oldest grandchild for my grandparents, and there are ALOT of us... SO this is a pretty dang big deal! The party wasn't supposed to start for a few hours, so as soon as my grandparents walk in, my dad gave me the cue... go get their present! I was walking in with my sweet grandpa, and told him I had a present for them, and he told me we really didn't need to bring them anything.... I told him..."yes grandpa, I did. Trust me though, you're going to love it." We went in and I grabbed grandma and gave them each their mugs that read "great grandpa est 2015" and "great grandma est. 2015". Grandma opened hers really fast, and grandpa read his and didn't fully understand the meaning until grandma started freaking out and hugging me like crazy. By then all my aunts and uncles were cheering in and screaming as well. I think he finally figured it out ;) hahaha And then again, a moment of such a proud family. I turned around and saw my sister standing there and I ran to her to hug my best friend. It was a good good weekend. My grandparents even put my mugs on display... I told alot of people that night that I made my grandparents, great grandparents. I have never felt so much love. 

I think that weekend to Utah was the best I've ever had. 

If you're ready for the post all about the Dr. Appt.... you're going to want to head over to the next post... trust me ;) 

Welcome to my NEW adventure, and NEW blog!!!

This week has brought so many new and exciting things to our lives. I wanted a new place designated for this amazing time in our lives. I have so many family members and friends that are spread out, and I thought this would be the best way for my loved ones and friends to stay current in this amazing experience we have been given. (and sort of a journal for myself ;))

I hope you'll follow us on our miracle journey ahead!

XOX